This is for my friend in a difficult time. A letter written worth a million tears.

"My dear little one. There are so many things i wish i could explain but you couldn't
hear me. I wish i could show you all the reasons why i have to do this, but you
can't see yet.

If you come into this world there are so many beautifuls things to learn. An important
thing is love. You need to know that Mummy and Daddy love you more than we love
each other. If we had you and got to hold you in our arms we would show you every
single way we could that we love you, Cover you with kisses, warm you up with hugs
and shower you with gifts.

Unfortunately another thing to learn in this world is money. It so cruel that Mummy
and Daddy don't have enough of that to be able to give you every little thing you deserve.
So i have to say goodbye and send you some where far away where money doesnt matter.
You will ALWAYS be our little one and i promise to never ever forget you.

If there was any way in this world i could keep you i would do it. But i can't. I feel like i
failed you and i am so sorry. I don't want to let you go.

The 8th of December was the day you were due to arrive. I promise to send you birthday
wishes. I'm sure you will have little brother and sisters someday in the future. I'll make
sure they know all about you. Please watch over them my little angel. Mummy loves
you more than you will ever know.

Goodnight sweetheart. Sweet dreams and Rest In Peace.

We Love You"

A whole year ago today.
we met at a party. we looked at each other.
we blushed.
and then we were...

destined... (no wait thats too strong)
fated... (still seems a bit over the top)
taped... together... with duct tape from james.
hahaha yeah thats right.

a year ago we fell in love, we fell out and in again.
ups and downs that each relationship has.
i asked you out, over the phone in art class.
everything seemed right.
and it still does.

every day that passes, i see more things in you.
some good, some annoing, but they make me love you more.
i think your an angel

"you're heavensent
dont you dare forget
you are all i've ever wanted
what all the other boys all promised..."

and i thank the lord every day your here with me.

happy anniversary caleb. its been hard but its been fun.
thank you for a love worth living and waiting all that time for.

- -

8-5-05

many people over the year have asked me why i chose take-me-away as my devart nickname,

not really i just wanna show everyone why.



well the reasonis because some of my fave bands have those particular 3 words in their songs.

here are just a few.

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YELLOWCARD - "Ocean Avenue"

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

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AIDEN - "this city is far from here"

Your sultry eyes,
your common kiss,
I’m in disguise,
its something I miss.
Your lipstick smears,
I’m feeling grey,
with not much time to take me away.
This city is far from here.
Now turn back,
turn back.
I’m scared,
but in the bright lights
we fade into the rearview mirror.

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FROM FIRST TO LAST - "Such A Tragedy"

You used to be my angel,
but now you're more like the devil.
Keep on talking darling,
you're bound to kill yourself...
with another thousand words.

And tear my eyes right out;
I'd rather see you, without them anyway.
And tear my eyes right out;
I'd rather see, without them anyway.

Take me away
(Take me away)
I don't know you anymore.
(I don't know)
Take me away
(Take me away)
I don't know you anymore.

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MEST - "Take Me Away (Cried Out To Heaven)"


I never wanted it to be this way
Crashing down like the pouring rain
Lying still in my blood-stained clothes
Is this the ending that no one knows
Is this the ending that no one knows
Is this the ending that no one knows

So take me away
Take me away
(Take me away)
Take me away
So take me away
(Take me away)

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UNWRITTEN LAW - "Take Me Away"


And i want to fall asleep, ya, cause i know that where we'll meet
But i sit and wonder why i'm alone again tonight
Lets go there out of sight, hey Jodi
Won't you take me away, hey hey hey
Hey Jodi, won't you take me away

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now this is the very first song i got it from.
my favourite song from years and years ago
i dunno if anyone even remembers it
google couldnt even find it for me
thankfully altavista did
i really like the chorus
reminds me of Caleb

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Tony Lee Scott - Take Me Away

You are impossible
There is no one else quite like you
Yeah you are so incredible
Couldn't hurt me if they wanted to

When I saw you at the shopping mall
You ignored me, yeah you didn't care
So i walked up to you and I kissed your mouth
You moved your tongue like Fred Astaire
And that's why I consider you to be the one

To take me away from the ordinary
I wanna know if you'd consider me
To be your boyfriend
To be your lover
The one who will come running

You see I am the one who
Has a problem with self identity
While you are in my bedroom
Waving carrots in front of me around
And that's why I consider you to be the one

To take me away from the ordinary
I wanna know if you'd consider me
To be your boyfriend
To be your lover
The one who will come running

Why do I have to follow you around
Like a little puppy dog
But if that's what it takes for you to
Get your attention on me
You know I will be

Yeah you came into my life
Like a four leaf clover
Since you came in, turned it upside down
Yeah I knew the search was over, over.

i am having a shit day
stuck at home
with chickenpox

but hey i got into TAFE!!!
diploma of event management
so you'll be expecting a few devart and myspace parties/events at the end of this year

i feel so sick
for those of you who havent had chickenpox before
its like having itchy blisters all over your body
and more appear over you body every hour
its uncomfortable.

boo!

well i hope you all had a great aussie day
hopefully get to see some of you when i feel better

le`gant

--

"It’s like a pencil with erasers at both ends
I want it all but we’re dealing in percents
And these activities that you have engaged in
This is the politics of seeing you dance with him..

This is the way it goes
With you a part of it
Nervously saying words
That oh-so-tightly fit
A mark beneath the chin
And I’ve caught you once again
It’s in the way you sell every word and phrase
And leaving me to know how much the meaning weighs
Saying that but meaning this
Your tears for emphasis

That dress and those eyes are telling white white lies
White white lies"

okay motherfuckers.
here is my best advice.

when getting drunk at a party...

1. do not walk in on the FUCKing couple
2. do not join in with the FUCKing couple
2. (con't) DO NOT LET A MOTHER IN THE THE DOOR DURING THESE ACTIVITIES!!!
3. do not drink excessively to nearly fall off a balcony.
4. do not try and jump on a motherfucking trampoline while excessively drunk.
5. do not get boys so drunk they piss out of the window while in a moving car. LOL @ Nathan.
6. Do not get so drunk you take your bra off for drunk boys to try on.
7. Do not sit around smoking while braless. A silly drunk boy WILL try and expose your boobs while you burn yourself in the face. Its reallllllllllly ugly trust me!

Note to self: do not get drunk anymore.
- i know i won't succeed.